Just remembered there is a free Rascal Flatts cover concert tomorrow night in queens! Sadly, I can't go even though it's my day off, as I agreed to substitute a last minute yoga class. Insert cranky yoga teacher face:)
As a tricute to the concert I'm missing - even though, let's face it - it's just a Rascal Flatts cover band...I'm probably not really missing anything - as my own personal tribute, I'm going to use a Rascal Flatts tune to inspire this blog. If you know their stuff, you'll appreciate it, if you don't, then you should look this one up on youtube for the SICK harmonizing they do. Boy band turns country turns yummy acapella.
Title of the song which this blog will be based upon: Movin' On
Let's start with the first set of lyrics:
"I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons, finally content with a past I regret. I find you find strength in your moments of weakness, for once I'm at peace with myself."
Straightforward. Yeah we all have things we regreat in the past, our demons, skeletons in the closet. However, until we find the tough part of us within the weakness, within the failure, we can't take the first step away from the failure, and put our path towards a brighter future. For me, I was stuck being a hopeless romantic, an idealistic kid who thought that my problems were just going to fix themselves. I always thought that by virtue of having talent, you were somehow immune to the tough parts of life...needless to say, this kicked me from behind more than one.
"I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long, I'm movin' on."
Self explanatory. We feel the blame, the shame, the self loathing for all the stupid, needless hurtful things in our past. The time needs to come to let it go and press on and discover a respect for ourselves and our inner strength that we didn't know existed.
"I'm moving on, at last I can see, life has been patiently waiting for me, and I know, there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone. There comes a time in everyone's life, when all you can see are the years passing by, and I have made up my mind that those days, are gone."
This is so beautiful. I don't know if it's the lyrics or the gorgeous harmonizing, but there have been nights when I've lain in a dark, cold park, listening to these lyrics and begging myself to change. To press on, move forward, and be better and more fulfilled than ever before. Who am I? And why am I staring at the years gone by and wishing for something...something that wasn't fulfilling me in the first place?
"I've lived in this place, and I know all the faces, each one is different, but they're always the same. They mean me no harm, but it's time that I face it, they'll never allow me to change. ANd I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong. I'm movin on."
Ahhhh. When home no longer feels like home. WHen you don't know where you belong, and your world is upturned, and you start to question not only your habitat, but your very existence as well. You become shaken to the core, and you wonder why you are where you are, who is the person in the body, and when will you feel content, peaceful, belonging? The song concludes below. I want to think that I'm going through growing pains, but I know that "moving on" can happen at all different times in life. I had a physics teacher who told me that the reason why I struggled, was because my brain wasn't ready to think "in abstracts." Perhaps the same has been true for my personal development. I couldn't move on, because I wasn't ready to take serious things seriously. But now I ready for one baby step. And I think after I tackle this one, not only will I be a better human for it, but very soon the next phase of moving on will follow. And I'm not alone, and I'm not afraid.
"I sold what I could, and packed what I couldn't. Stopped to fill up on my way outta town.I've loved like I should, but lived like I shouldn't, I had to lose everything to find out. MAybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road...I'm movin on."
Now go watch the darn song on youtube.
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